Sleep Haunts
It's 6:46 on Saturday am. I didn't get to bed until about 1:30 this morning. I don't know why I can't sleep.
I woke up about an hour ago, after having a really strange dream.
I was at a bar, but it had really long pews, like a church, but with the tables in between, like a german restaurant. There was a lady there with a baby, and it was really strange looking. It's head was about that same size as it's body, and it had poppy eyes. I started to talk to her, asking leading questions about her pregnancy and the baby, trying to figure out what the hell could have happened. She had no idea what my intentions were, and answered all these strange things. And that, oh, she's vegetarian. I decided that's why the baby was fucked up.
I walked away to go find my friends, but everyone had babies there. Someone asked me for my ID and I couldn't find it. They told me I should go get another made in the back corner, so I did. It was like a long DMV line and there was a lady with the bee hive hair taking pictures and putting them on lanyards. I took my picture, but she said the wait was 30 minutes for it to print, so I went out to visit again. Time went by too fast, and I forgot about my picture. When I went back, everything was gone, like it was never there except that my new ID was taped to the wall. It was there really good and I couldn't get it off, so I went to find someone that worked there. It ended up being a teacher from my past. He asked if I had any kids here with me, and I told him no, that I wasn't married yet. He told me that was a shame because I'm getting to be really late at all the goals and dreams that he knew I had, and that if I couldn't make an effort to get things straight, I should just give up, because there was no point in trying if I didn't start now. I tried to explain that things just weren't going how I wanted to, and there were some set backs that were keeping me from getting married and starting my life, but he said t seemed pretty clear I was just making excuses, and how disappointing it was to see me this way.
I wasn't even sure what to say, and started to feel my chest get tight and a panic attack start, and then I woke up.
And now, I cannot go back to sleep. Maybe after getting all that out I'll be able to...
